I also posted this on Instagram because this quote has been transformational for me. It is a simple description that solidifies so much of what confuses me as I paint. The pull that I feel to paint is so big and dark and mysterious and inviting and so so comfortable. The quote from Art & Fear reminds me that this is because it is the imagined piece.
The imagined piece is a real thing, if thoughts are things, but it just isn't a painting. And I need to focus on painting.
As I paint, as possibilities are converted into realities, I feel a growing sense of loss. I've known this to be true, but I have resisted it. Because I don't think I view my paintings, the objects, as precious. I'm kind of proud of that, too. But I see now, that state I'm in, the one that moves me to paint...I LOVE that state. And I love it because of the safety I feel in a space of potential.
And as it spills out of me, I miss it. And then I look at the painting, comparing it to that feeling I miss, and it just doesn't hold up. At that point, I still like the painting, but not with the same investment and commitment I felt when I was drawn to create it.
Imagine that new sky-like painting on the right above the middle one. I really want to put it up there but I want to add more layers.